12 October 2010

My 1st YA love -> Review: J.P. Barnaby - Enlightened

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Enlightened (Mar 2010)
Little Boy Lost Series #1
Book origin: Won a copy at Fiction Vixen

Cover Summary:
Little Boy Lost is the story of Brian McAllister, the boy next door.

Brian goes to school, does his homework, and helps his foster parents around the house. Brian also has a secret. He is in love with his best friend. In Crayford, Alabama being in love with another boy is the worst kind of sin.

In this first book, Enlightened, Brian and Jamie discover just how deep their emotional bond runs, and at what cost. From fumbling through their first sexual experiences to shrouding every aspect of their relationship from everyone in their lives, Brian and Jamie battle for the one thing that is truly theirs - love.

What will they do if their secret is discovered?

My Review: I will be the first to admit I don't read much within the Young Adult genre but when I won ENLIGHTENED I was intrigued by this coming of age M/M story. I don't think anything could've prepared me for the reading experience I was about to have. What I found so intelligently written was the teenage angst of an almost seventeen year old exploring his gay sexuality and romantic feeling towards his best friend. There is no over-embellishing of the drama or emotions but a very sincere story that won my heart over with the soul-deep first love blossoming between Brian McAllister and Jamie Mayfield.

The story is voiced from Brian who is an orphan living with his foster parents, the Schreiber's, in a small town in Alabama. From the sparse young adult novels I've read it is often difficult for me to connect with the adolescent protags. It was because of the life-altering discoveries Brian and Jamie made, the repercussions of being found out and the way they dealt with it all, that really made me find that connection. The struggle is a universal one; discovering who you are and want to be, only Brian is gay...in a very small and religious town. Of course not exactly the perfect setting to freely explore one's sexual self but it does such a fantastic job of becoming a platform for all those angst's, doubts and those many questions that riddles Brian and Jamie.

ENLIGHTENED delivers such a beautiful m/m coming of age story where I found the realism of the story something that resonated with me from beginning till end. It pretty much revolves around the daily life of Brian but the themes in this story infuse it with attention grabbing inner struggles. The blossoming of an intense first love, those tentative first passionate steps, the joy and fear that accompanies each new step and the ever present angst for discovery, it blended in to something so profound I yearned for Brian and Jamie to reach a happy forever together.

It didn't take long for me to be absorbed completely by the two protags and enjoy the fluent and emotive writing style from J.P. Barnaby. The author takes her time to set-up the story but at a certain point things start to happen rapidly and I almost couldn't believe what I was reading and then the story was over. Leaving me utterly shocked. J.P Barnaby provided a cliff hanger of gigantic proportions which left me at such an emotional high that I stared at those last words for a few minutes, almost not believing this is where it ended. There had to be a book two, I just knew it would not...could not end like that.

I found out that ABONDONED will hopefully be released soon so I'll say this; Go out, buy ENLIGHTENED for the heart-rendering beautiful tale it is but know that reading it is to crave book two; ABANDONED! Brian and Jamie's journey is long from over and I need to be there every step of the way! This young adult M/M story is impressive in its sincerity of the themes handled!

4.5 stars

Then, in the lightest of touches, soft but unyielding, his lips pressed against mine. My eyes closed, and I felt a rush of emotion, sexual tension - something – building within me. As his mouth molded over the contours of my lips, we reveled in the untamed surge of passion that flowed between us. The kiss was delicate, sweet, and lingered just long enough to make me want more. I had waited my whole life for my first kiss, and while it wasn’t exactly how I’d pictured it in my youth, it was perfect. His lips were warm and smooth as they moved against mine, causing a swelling tension in my stomach. The rain continued to pound the tree house roof as my arms nearly ached to go around him. I was scared to break the spell that had enveloped us. It was everything that a boy’s first kiss should be.
Only it wasn’t with a girl.

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  1. Yes - this book is so emotional...and the journey Brian goes on..and the end...le sigh. Very beautiful. Nice review :)

  2. I'm so glad you liked this one Leontine!!! I just fell in love with this series.

  3. Wow! First of all, what a fantastic review, Leontine! Second, I'm so impressed that this author has set out to create a YA m/m! Go her! So I'm assuming it doesn't have strong sexual content, correct? Just wondering in terms of being YA. I can't imagine what it would feel like to be a young boy discovering their sexuality, let alone a young gay boy in the Bible Belt. This sounds like a great book! Thanks for sharing!

  4. @Mandi - You know me, I'm an emotion drven reader so this series fits in so well with my reading habits :)

    @Smokinhotbooks - I distinctly remeber reading your review & was already interested but hesistated a bit because of the age of Brian & Jamie. Oh how they proved me wrong ;))

    @Tanya - There is sexual content but for me it was a natural development along the emotions. It doesn't remain with some kisses...

  5. Sounds good, and I like that there is YA m/m too :)

  6. I have this on my reader (probably based on Mandi's review)... now I just need to get around to reading it!

  7. I'm so glad you liked this. I loved it. A really emotional read. Great review L.

  8. I have this on my ereader for a while now, ever since KC raved about it, but I'm dreading the cliff hanger. I think I'm safer waiting for Abandoned... Although your fabulous review has made me impatient now and I hope it won't be too long before the sequel is released!

  9. Damn girl, you're sweeping your M/M challenge!

    Glad you enjoyed this one. Unfortunately, the M/M genre just isn't for me.

  10. @Blodeuedd - I was actually shocked I fell so hard for this YA m/m.

    @Chris - I hope you get to read it soon, it's quite the opening story!

    @Fiction Vixen - For once I'm so glad I woke up early that saturday and went online...otherwise i think every copy would've been given away if I would've gone online 3.5 hours later like I usually do!

    @Janna - I really hope ABANDONED will have a release date soon too because you'll want it. I spent my weekend with Brian and Jamie :)

    @VampFanGirl - If there is one genre that conquered my e-reader in 2010 then its M/M.


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