13 December 2010

Celebrate the love - Naughty Xmas style


I developed this Xmas card before November 22nd when my life turned upside down, leaving me to deal with a whirlwind of emotions. Still, I wanted to send it to you all and wish every naughty reader (and we know we are a legion on our own) a wonderful Xmas shared with loved ones, lively conversations and good food.

I also want to take this opportunity to thank each and every one who commented on the post; The loss of my soulmate. The warmth, hugs, prayers and sharing of own stories is much appreciated! I can't emphasize on that enough, even though I may not answer each e-mail, or reply to each comment, know that I read every single one of them and take in the comfort it brings.

I quote from Dr.J's comment here: "There can't be anything more devastating than losing the one person that made your life so complete. But you will find that there will come a day when your memories will be just as precious, your heart will resound with love for Henry just as always, and you will continue to miss him. But the awful sense of painful emptiness will not be so bad."

Many people tell me this in one form or another and it is my small light to guide me at this time. Right now all I can feel is the painful emptiness; reaching out my hand knowing I will never find his - never hearing his voice again or watching him being moved by a guitar or drum solo.

Come this Xmas I will remember the Xmas morning 14 years ago when Henry proposed to me, the promise he gave me in the love he felt and life he wanted with me and how he lit up like a thousand candles as I said yes. I will have my family surrounding me at Xmas and I'm glad for that comfort, my brother is even willing to watch Sex In The City 2! We will celebrate my brother and father's b-day the next day (second Xmas day here in the Netherlands) and then I'm off for a few days up north with my dogs and sister. 

Whether you've been naughty or nice...I hope you all have an incredible Xmas where small and big wishes come true!

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16 comments:

  1. Merry Christmas, Leontine! I have been thinking about you. How nice that Christmas is a such a special holiday to you and Henry. I hope that you are able to enjoy the day with your family.

    All my best,
    Penny

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  2. I hope you will have a lovely Christmas with your loved ones and then meet the new year.
    *hugs*

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  3. You know you'll be in my thoughts, not only with Christmas, hon!
    *hugs*

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  4. Aw, thanks for the card. *big hug*

    We're here for you, ok??

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  5. My dear sweet Leontine... Once again you have moved me with your touching words. I pray that you may find a moment or two of joy among the memories and sorrow during this holiday season.

    And since there are so many of us here to send love, I suggest a big *group hug*

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  6. Leontine, I hope with your family around you that you can find some peace and comfort this Christmas. Thanks for sharing the card with us. *hugs*

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  7. And I am with Twin.. Group Hug!!!

    You know I love you and if miles were not between us, You would be with me... and I with you! And of course your family, lol! Hope you at least giggled a little.

    I love you honey, know that in my heart you will always be. And if you need.... You know where I am!

    And thank you sharing ~ that is what makes you special!

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  8. I love the Christmas card.
    Take comfort in your family this holiday season.And know you are in my thoughts.{hugs}

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  9. I love the card, Leontine! You're on my mind constantly, and I only pray that you are able to find some happiness in the good memories this Christmas. I wish I could pull you into a hug right now, so instead I'll send you a big virtual one! :) Hugs and kisses, sweetie!

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  10. Wishing you every blessing at Christmas and for 2011 - I hope you feel Henry with you at Christmas. Hugs.

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  11. Thanks so much for the beautiful Christmas card. Holidays are always difficult when anyone suffers such devastating loss, but in your case it has come almost on the heels of the loss of your precious one. Just let the blessings flow around your wounded heart and soul and keep the faith. There are all of us holding you up in our thoughts and prayers. You will get through this and the glow of the Christmas Star will lead you to look beyond your grief into that wondrous place where your hubby waits for you.

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  12. Leontine, I love the card. If only all the Christmas cards I received were that yummy! I am glad to hear you will be surrounded by your family this Christmas. I know you will find some comfort in their love. I think of you often. *hugs*

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  13. ((hugs)) my friend. As usual, words fail me. Just know that I'm keeping you close in my thoughts. xoxo

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  14. ((hugs)) Everyone has taken the words out of my mouth, but know that we are here for you if you need us to be.

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  15. I wish you warm days with your family!

    Huggs,
    Lucy

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