14 August 2013

Review: Kitty Thomas - Big Sky

Author: Kitty Thomas
Publisher: Burlesque Press
Publishing date: September 22nd, 2012
Format: Hardcover, 188 pages.
ISBN: 1938639057
Genre: Erotica
Source: Author send me a review copy

Summary Goodreads
Veronica Cason lives in a small apartment with no clear view of the sky. It’s uncertain which might crush her first: her debt or the buildings squeezed in so tight that they surround her like ominous sentinels. She can’t breathe in the city. Her success is a lie, and her debt is coming to collect her—unless someone else gets there first.

When a stranger offers her a job at a ranch, it feels like salvation, but it could also mean her death if his motives aren’t pure. Which door has the tiger behind it? The claustrophobia of the city or ranch life under an open sky?


When Kitty Thomas offered Big Sky for review I jumped to the chance. Comfort Food is still one of those erotica stories I’ll remember for its unusual and thought provoking storyline. I love challenging my boundaries but I think I bit more of than I can chew with Big Sky. I normally love the Dom/sub trope but what Kitty Thomas gave me rubbed me the wrong way.

Due to her own machinations, Ronnie hits rock bottom and with no penny to her name. She meets Luke by chance and he offers her a place to stay and work. His offer, however, has a lot more in store for Ronnie. I didn’t like Ronnie right off the bat with her nature of living above her means. Luke was interesting in the beginning but when Ronnie decides to move into his ranch the “fun” starts and all I wanted to do was slap Luke a good one across the face.
'He released her then. She’d gotten only a few steps to the door when an electric zap shot up her body. She crumpled to the ground, shrieking so loudly she could barely believe the noise had come from her own mouth. She convulsed a few more times, then lay still, disoriented and terrified. Yes, Luke could do anything. He stood over her, a small remote in his hand. “If you try to signal for help in any way, I will push the button, and I won’t push it just once.” The shock cuff made even the idea of branding seem like child’s play.'
Luke’s way of conditioning Ronnie was the first sign of irritation. I couldn’t get in to the mind set of Ronnie why she would go along with it. Still I was patient enough to see her evolve. Then something else happened that was a major red flag for me.
'I’m not kidding, Veronica. You will be her. Or else. You’ll make me forget you aren’t her. I’m not going back to before I found you. You will love me and obey me and submit to me, and you’ll do it with that look of adoration 'Trish used to give me or I’ll never stop making you regret wearing her face.” His voice had risen as he became more intense. “Am I getting through, here?'
Trish was Luke’s former submissive who died in childbirth. I had major trouble with the fact Luke wants Ronnie to become Trish. He didn’t value Ronnie on her own spirit or her own personality. No, he liked her because Ronnie looked like his deceased submissive. This fact made it very hard for me to believe in any kind of relationship between them.

There’s a fine line between a dominating man and an asshole, between a woman who finds strength in submission or just submitting. Luke and Ronnie didn't hit the balance right and I couldn't really get invested in their relationship dynamic. The character development and their motivation to be together was very self-centered and it put me off. Then the ranch helpers also got involved in the erotic nature of the game played by Luke. They wanted to drink breast milk from her.
'Luke pulled away. “You’re going to give me milk like a good little animal, aren’t you?” She closed her eyes against his scrutiny. He stroked the side of her cheek. “I’m going to condition you to want to give me what I want. By the time your body is ready, the idea will arouse you so much, you’ll happily let me milk you every day.” Maybe a part of her sick, twisted mind already wanted to.
The erotic trope in Big Sky is definitely dark and twisted. While I like authors to push the envelope and search the boundaries of the reader, the sexual nature of Big Sky couldn’t make me gasp for breath or read on with a pounding heart. It was all; “Are you kidding me!” The ending befitted the story but like the rest of the story it didn’t leave me in any way satisfied.

Kitty Thomas possesses incredible writing skills but in Big Sky the characters failed to resonate with me and due to this the eroticism fell flat for me.

2 stars
'I take care of what’s mine, princess.'
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06 August 2013

Review: Jasinda Wilder - Falling Into you

E-Book, 369 pages
Published March 14th 2013 by Jasinda Wilder
ISBN13: 2940016356938
Genre; Contemporary Romance
Series; Falling
I own this book.

Summary Goodreads;
I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.
Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.

Colton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.


I found my way to, Falling Into you, via social media. In my Facebook timeline I noticed a link to an interview with self-published author, Jasinda Wilder. From that interview I wanted to know more about her books and went to Goodreads. There I read the blurb of Falling Into You and I knew it was the story for me to read. I was in an emotional state that morning and I needed a story that would satisfy my need for an equal emotional story. So I bought it and started reading immediately.
It was a first person storytelling and I was intrigued by Nell from the get-go. When the story begins she’s sixteen and falling in love with Kyle, her best friend. It was a sweet love story with the intensity of a first time love. I was swept away in the excitement that comes from being on the precipice of adulthood. Of giving yourself for the first time. Making plans for the future. I was there, emotionally invested in these two wonderful young people, when the story takes a dramatic turn and my heart was shredded to pieces.
I reveled in the impact it had on me and at the same time felt so sad for Nell. From that moment the story becomes edgier as one event turns the life of Nell and Colton irrivocably. The story was no longer sweet and rife with possibilities, but full of dark feelings and not knowing where to go or what to do. Just feel the storm inside.
Colton is a man that had to make it on his own from a very young age, he was an gang member, a fighter and is now trying to make something of his life. I loved the layers of his character. He could be violent, has his own moral code but the way he gives himself to Nell just had me falling for him, hard!
Nell is no longer that vibrant young woman but dealing with guilt and loss. The future she envisioned no longer one she desires. She is changed and dealing with it in her own way. Since this story is told from Nell’s perspective it is important the reader can connect with her. And that is exactly what I did! All the good and the bad, every emotion Nell has is exposed for me to absorb and I loved it. To experience how Nell came to terms and fall in love again was very moving.
Even though the storytelling has a fast pace the writing is beautiful and attention grabbing. It enhanced the impact as both main characters explored their emotional journey. The grief feels so real, their budding romance so poignant, their sexual attraction skating on the darker side and I just gobbled it all up. Colton and Nell connect together in a way that made me believe they’re just made for one another.
Falling Into You is a raw but intensely gripping coming-of-age story that instantly became one of my best reads in 2013.   
4.5 stars

Quote Nell:
I wanted nothing more than to climb into the box with him and quit breathing, find him in whatever came after life.

Quote Nell;
I knew the song within a few chords: “Reminder” by Mumford & Sons. I thought He’d only play, so I was stunned when he took a breath and began to sing the words in a low, melodic, raspy voice. He didn’t just play the song as it was, though. He twisted it, changed it, made it his. It was already a beautiful, haunting song, but Colton’s version touched something in my soul.

Quote Colton:
“But when you feel that kind of all-consuming need for someone, a person you’d do fucking anything for, no matter what? They’re in your fucking skin, in your soul, like the essence of who they are is imprinted on you so completely that the very air you breathe and each molecule of who you are is tangled together. That’s love. I loved her like that. Colton’s voice is…shattered. And she’s gone. That’s why I have this shit on my chest, the scars. I couldn’t deal. I couldn’t accept that she was dead for the longest time.”

Quote Colton:
“I’m not just falling in love with you, Nell. I’m falling into you. You’re an ocean, and I’m falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are. Like you said, it’s scary in a way, but it’s also the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced. You are the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced.”

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